I visited the 'Free College Chat Room' (
http://www.chat-avenue.com/collegechat.html) a few times this past weekend to gain some perspective on the world of online chat rooms. Honestly, the last time I visited one of these 'chat rooms' must have been 7th or 8th grade, when I thought it was
cool (or funny?) to pretend that I was an 18+/F. So the actual act of interacting via chat room was a bit unfamiliar, and I would say, noticeably uncomfortable at first. Still, once I convinced myself that none of these people had any idea who I was, nor was it at all likely that we would ever meet; I started to loosen up and interact with a range of characters.
"Sailor Girl," or as she told me later, "Kristen," was the first person I made direct contact with. The very act of switching from 'group chat' to direct chat in private instant messaging is an interesting online phenomenon in itself. You have the aggressive instant messengers, who after making immediate contact in 'group chat' quickly ask for "a/s/l" in a private message. And you have the more laid-back, passive instant messengers who are content with chatting in group chat until a real connection (if you can actually have one in quick instant messaging conversation...) is made. I'd categorize myself as the latter, although after interacting with "Sailor Girl" for 15+ minutes in group-chat I started to grow irritated with the constant interruptions and asked her if she'd be willing to talk in private instant messages.
It's interesting, but when "Sailor Girl" said "umm...sure" I felt a sudden jolt and feeling of excitement. I didn't even know this person, had no idea what she looked like or how many other people she had privately messaged that very day, but the fact that she was willing to accept my invitation invigorated my senses. I wouldn't say it was necessarily on-par with face-to-face acceptance, but it was still fairly intense.
"Sailor Girl," a native of
Chicago who loves Chinese food, was a bit hesitant to share personal information with me at first, so I did most of the talking at the beginning. But even as she resisted my original overtures, I remember feeling an intense feeling of excitement, of intrigue at just how easy this was, and potentially—how much I could get out of interacting with people online. And then, just when I was thinking about asking Kristen for a picture, she threw a bombshell at me: "You know, I was lying before...I'm not really 20. I’m sorry, I'm actually 14."
I just stared at the screen for a second, and then remember starting to chuckle. "What the heck is wrong with me?" I thought. How could I have actually thought I was starting to get to know someone I had never seen? Why did I think we might “have something” when I had barely interacted with this person for more than 20 minutes? I didn't even bother responding to her, and quickly signed out of the chat.
Looking back, I think my experience resonated with Walther's Hyperpersonal Model. Interacting with Kristen, I never got a real feel for the 'breadth' (or detailed nature) of her personality. I knew where she was from, vaguely what she (might have) looked like (brown hair, blue eyes, 5/4, slender build), and her favorite movie (40-year-old-virgin) and favorite food (Chinese), but I didn't have much sense of how she carried herself, what her voice sounded like, or anything really about her actual personality.
Yet, I found myself making real intense impressions about her, that in retrospect (especially upon learning she had lied to me), I didn't have any right making. For example, I assumed that she was playing hard-to-get when she said "umm...okay" when I asked her if we could privately chat, instead of considering the fact that maybe she was just hesitant to talk to a complete stranger. Or when she told me her favorite movie was 40-year-old-virgin I immediately assumed she was a funny/good-natured person. When she told me she was 'slender,' I pictured a skinny, good-looking brunette who was my age. The intensity of my judgments, in hindsight, were totally unmerited. But they were still there.
The experience, in and of itself, was a good learning experience. I don't think the online chatting world is really my
thing, at least at this point in my life. There's just too much unknown out there, and I don’t like the idea of spending time talking with someone who might be lying to me. Still, it is very interesting how willing I was to make intense judgments about someone that I knew absolutely nothing about. The Hyperpersonal model, I think, comes the closest to explaining my judgments and reactions.